Ok, I know I'm repeating myself by drowning you guys in self-misery. (It's not that I wanted it! I can't help it!)

Oh well.

I don't know if this is helping things much although sometimes maybe we should just end it quick and clean. You know, no strings attached kind of thing? I don't know if I can even last that long, this coming 2 weeks seem like hell or something. The worst? I feel like I'm stuck in an hourglass with only occasional visitors at given time. Something much like a jail. Kind of felt like hell with this in-between feeling. Not here, not there. Want things to move forward but hope time can slow down during the desired moments.

I'll be so lonesome without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
And blue

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember 'til you're home again

-You belong to me, Vonda Shepard

I want/need/wish for a perfect life.

Fat hope.

Tomorrow is the deciding factor day. I hope all things turn out well and let it end my torture.

Wish me luck!