Ok. Am abit pissed with how my life is going on recently. Makes one wonder if one can choose the life they want, what would they want? For me, I think something simple like security would be nice.

Security as in...
-finance security
-personal security
-inter-relationships security
- And the most important, emotional security.

Gosh, please don't start thinking I'm some insecured freak. I just don't get why some people are just soooo lucky and protected while some of us just get bashed up like a football in a scurry of mad mens.

*Sighs*

"Take it as training." That's the best comfort I can give myself. What's a few more years to go (like 80 or something?) when I've already survived till this very crazy age of 21. Oh gawd, now I really want to cry! Hahahahah...

"Smile and the world smile with you, cry you must but must be with a smile" Mask up everyone!


It's Lucas POP tomorrow. Gosh! I'm so proud of him! Platoon best! Hahahah....I'm soooo surprised! Too bad, the award is not in my name, or I'll be even happier! Muahahahahahha